doing without is filling me up

by sexythinker

i’m drinking lemon water and talking too loud at a borders bookstore in ohio.  a guy flashes me an annoyed glare and i wink at him (my charming way of apologizing).  i’m rushing to wrap up my week so that i can move onto a fun-filled 7 year old’s birthday weekend.   i keep getting distracted wondering whether or not i was too hard on the guy i just hung up the phone with.   i’m on the second day of a two day fast, so i’m not quite as approachable as i might normally be.  while i may not be as debonair as i usually am (ha), this fast has been a meaningful experience for me that’s making me a better person in a few ways:

1) i’m typically a wimp and sometimes pretty lazy when it comes to this type of stuff.  it’s pretty cool to discover a newly found discipline and toughness.

2) i decided to do the fast for selfish reasons.  cleanse my system, lose some weight and clear my mind.  however, by choosing to go two days experiencing hunger pains during this month’s “12 for 12k Charity, Share Our Strength” fund raising, i haven’t been able to quit thinking about the children who don’t have a choice in the matter. and,  i’m so inspired to do more.

3) while i’m clearly aggravated easily, i’m in this strangely lovable, super affectionate place right now when it comes to those i care about most.

once i got past the whining and headache i realized i’m kind of digging this fast thing.  or it’s making me delusional.  either way, I can’t wait for breakfast in the morning.

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One Comment to “doing without is filling me up”

  1. I am not sure if you are religious but I have always been told that you should to cleanse yourself so that you can hear more clearly from God and be delivered. It is supposed to set you free. I, like you, until recently lack the discipline it takes. I need to work on that.

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